i'm hopeful today, it's an odd feeling, the anxiety isn't bad but it's not gone or anything. my car is getting fixed, another 140 down the drain... i'm worried about money, but am hopeful ebay can at least help me get situated, at least until i find some work. the beer store behind the house is looking for part time help so i figure that i can maybe pull that off, it will be shit, but it will be something. I'm also going to follow up on the places i applied this week and i'm going to check out ART, maybe give them a call and see what's up.


today isn't the greatest, not even close, but it's another day to at least try. don't mistake this for optimism, just passive behaviours.