yesterday was one of the most bipolar days i've experienced in some time. it wasn't even mental, just in the events. seriously day started pissing me off, and ended with me saying "this is the greatest time of my fucking life"


sleep, jen867, best spot on earth, great food. fuck

supposed to go restore my driving liscence and i can't find my wallet, fuck me man

Anxiety

a lot of times i have trouble properly grasping hold and understanding the impulsive wave of emotions that i tend to wade through. i get confused a lot, and i think it triggers lavish anxieties that propel me into making rash decisions, impulsive choices, and it's impossible. a lot of times i'll look at myself as if i'm a moron for saying things i say when nervous, the ways i act that seem shy and shaky, or things that i pass up. i hope things balance out soon. i want to take a different look at things for once.