Anxiety

a lot of times i have trouble properly grasping hold and understanding the impulsive wave of emotions that i tend to wade through. i get confused a lot, and i think it triggers lavish anxieties that propel me into making rash decisions, impulsive choices, and it's impossible. a lot of times i'll look at myself as if i'm a moron for saying things i say when nervous, the ways i act that seem shy and shaky, or things that i pass up. i hope things balance out soon. i want to take a different look at things for once.